I began to make this film because I had made a short film a couple of years ago called Peekaboo, which looked at stillbirth. During the making of this film and afterwards, I got to know many families who had lost their babies and they told me their stories. I realised that is was still very much a taboo and I wanted to make this documentary so that it would finally be talked about and people didn’t feel like they couldn’t talk about what happened to them. I felt there was no one better qualified to tell these stories than the parents themselves so I began to put the start of the documentary together.
Having talked to other film experts, it became clear that although these stories needed to be told, the film would be so bleak that not many people would want to watch it. So we looked for stories that showed the real heartache and depths of despair that families go through, but that had a positive outcome. We decided to work with families that had done something spectacular in memory of their baby or had worked really hard to help others experiencing baby loss.
We decided we needed to shoot a pilot to try and raise the money for the rest of the film. I went to some very kind sponsors that had supported us during the making of Peekaboo, which was crowd funded. Crowd funding means that it was made from donations from many different people that wanted to support us. Three of our main sponsors on that film sponsored us a second time and donated enough money to buy some filming equipment for our shoot to begin. We also ran a crowd funding campaign to raise a little more and altogether raised £10,000 so that we could shoot our pilot.
This was phase one of our shoot over. We spent several days logging the rushes just before Christmas. We were very happy with the footage and excited to begin post production on the pilot.